"even the biggest failure beats the hell out of never trying"

feelings

"your hardest battle is between what you know and what you feel"

i can't take it anymore... im not happy with my life and i dont know how to fix it.

i'm sick of stressing out over money and stupid shit. that stuff isn't supposed to matter but it does.

& you confuse the fuck out of me by the way. i just don't understand anything

if you are going to say that shit to me then show me that you mean it

i never cry but lately i feel like crying all the time, except for when im with you

then i can't stop smiling, even if we aren't doing anything

you are the only person who can make me happy, yet you are the only one who can make me feel  that broken

depresssed moood, miss my best friend.

been awhile

haven't blogged in awhile. i feel like so much has happened too.

it's summer! finally got my tattoo!

I've only worked one day so far but i' finally on the schedule at outback, filled out my re hire paper work for lifetime, and got my internship job at Arizona Big Media! start tomorrow :)

i've been hanging out with jess & madison lots. misss bay like crazy though. 

today i hiked pinnacle peak then laid out= perfect day

 new foster the people album came out!

it's amazing

 he just came back into my life like he never even left.

i'm so happy when i'm with him, i can't even describe it.

he is honestly my best friend and always will be. idk what i would do without him.

im truly myself when i'm with him & he makes sure i know he cares

he's the one person i love more than anything.... & that's why he scares the shit out of me

you think your invincible and nothing you do is bad... it is though & you're way better than that

got in a car accident two days ago... scariest thing of my life

hahah so funny but seriously.

there's only so many times i can lecture you

im excited for what the rest of the summer might bring though :)

probably one of the worst feelings

it's finally hitting me that this year is over and everything's coming to an end

i don't want to grow up, i don't want time to go by so fast, and I don't want things to change.

just got back to my dorm from a goodbye dinner, I won't see any of my sorority girls all summer.

bailey is leaving me forever though.

at least I have the summer with jessica.

idk what i'm supposed to do without them next year.

 i'm literally in a state of depression right now sitting alone in this empty jail cell.

listening to music, bawling my eyes out..... not okay. i hate this

why is it always the people that matter most that leave?

i wish i was going with them..

who's supposed to go to starbucks with me everyday?

& who do i call every spare minute i have

& sitt in the grasss for hours, & go to the gym & obsess over songs and coffeee,

& do yoga with in the middle of campus, & make drunk videos where we both look retarded

& make fun of me when i do dumb things (most of the time), & tell me when i'm being a bitch & make me laugh just by looking at me (or saying "kim laugh"), & scream the best songs at the top of our lungs in the car, & have dates with mormons & take spontaneous road trips, & read cosmo, & keep me from studying, & dance with & remind me to not take life so seriously & fight over dumb things

& take millions of pictures with & overdose on coffee, & do abs in the middle of studying & "ATTEMPT" all nighters & call really late at night even if the other one is sleeping & ask advise about our "boyfriends", & squeezing into a small twin bed for sleepovers, & taking naps together, & skip classes we really should go to & get tattoos of really good quotes across OUR CHESTS haha & get real tattoos (hopefully) & wake up super early to take shots & still make it through the night with me & talk to me on facebook when we are sitting right next to eachother,  & accomplish missions with & just be there any time I need you and literally just every minute of this year that comes to mind was with you...... 

bestfriends no matter how many miles away you are.

i'm gunna miss you more than anything.

just remember i love you & we better skype everyday.

so full of knowledge

studying for my math final

have to get 94 :(

half way done with the 106 question packet,,, just needed a little break haha

listening to the amazing ellie goulding... she makes me happpy :)

Happy Mother's Day!

got my brother to leave balloons on the porch for my mom

when i called her to go outside she thought i was out there hahah

but she was still excited about the balloons :)

wish i was at home and not in this library

so weird summer is here. 3 more days and i will be in california

why do i live here? i ask myself this everyday....

stressin'

I hate this last week of school. i have so much to do

don't know where to start and really don't want to do any of it.

i needed money really bad today so i asked my daddy to put 20 in

& he put 100 in :) i feel really bad though because he wishes he could do more.

& we aren't used to this cause money has never been an issue before.

i just want to relax with a boy forever

& listen to him play the guitar.

if only... if only....

today i had to do the worst psychology experiment ever.

had to do things on the spot in front of people and a video camera

i never get awkward or embarrassed but i felt really uncomfortable haha

.”CALIFORNIA IS ONLY 9 DAYS AWAY!

COULDN'T COME ANY FASTER.

might NEVER come back

might as well live while I can... infinite opportunities

“If you limit your choices only to what seems possible or reasonable, you disconnect yourself from what you truly want, and all that is left is compromise.”